Just a little different from all the rest.

I used to make fun of people for taking kissing pictures, then I fell in love.

We’re meant to be, baby hold onto me. I’ll never not be your girl, ‘cause love is the heart of the world.

Chase Coy

If anyone deserves this, it’s you. 

If someone had told me four years ago to describe the most perfect best friend I could dream of, the description wouldn’t have come close to how truly incredible you are. I can’t even put our friendship into words, but it means more to me than anything in this entire world. You’ve taught me how to be strong, independent, and happy with everything…especially myself. You’ve listened to my crazy stories, been my strength when I was down, and put up with all the bs I’ve dealt with.

We say the most awful things to each other but couldn’t imagine ever being offended…what even is that? You drive me up the wall, look at me, and I just start laughing. If people heard the crazy things we say and make up, they’d probably never talk to us. Ever. We walk down the street holding hands, hug 15 times before we leave each other even though I’ll probably see you in an hour, and show up randomly at each other’s houses because we can’t stand to be away from each other for more than a day. Your house is my get away, even if you aren’t there. Who wouldn’t want 2 families? I’m blessed with the best second family in the entire world.

We watch Miranda for hours and acting like her never gets old. We laugh at EVERYTHING. Lis Wa and Deedee made us friends. <3 The best nights I’ve ever had were all spent with you. Making up crazy stories about how our lives would be and swearing they’ll come true. You taking care of me when I was being so ridiculous and having the time of my life. Being nice to each other and mean to everyone else. :)

We’re as physically opposite as it gets. Flowers and cheetah. Yellow and black. Good boys and bad. Country and rap. Curly and straight. Natural and 3 million colors. But the way we think, well we can’t get much more similar there. We know how to live life right and have a damn good time. We don’t put up with things, and no one realize that they will never get to us. We know what we want and won’t settle for anything less. If that means never getting married, hey we have each other. ;) I cannot even dream of life without you, it just wouldn’t work. You are the truest definition of a best friend, and simply saying I love you just doesn’t even cut it. Thank you for everything you do for me, thank you for showing me what friendship means. For lack of better words, I love you so much. But for the record, I hate you too ;)

Wale

So that we may have the strength to live as He did. So that we may follow in His footsteps as best we can. So that even when we stumble and slip up, we are forgiven. So that when our time on Earth is through, we can walk through the gates of Heaven and eternally live with Him in paradise.

As he hung on a cross with nails in His hands, nails in His feet, blood gushing from His body, and a crown of thorns on his head—He showed his incredible love for people past, present, and future. Our sins pierced His perfection, and He died for us. Me and you. Every person in this world. 

John 15:13 says, “There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.” After saying this, Jesus laid down His life. But not only did he die for His friends, He died for people he knew would hate him with a passion, and He loves them.

Without Jesus in my heart, the King of every single King, I would be nothing.

Please, keep saving me.

If I had one chance to talk to anyone, dead or alive, it would be you.

I wish I knew you. I wish I could call you anytime, day or night, and pour out the things weighing heavy on my heart. If I were given the chance, I’d talk to you until my voice disappeared.

I know, though, that if you were here and had never been gone, I would take it for granted. Who wouldn’t? It’s human nature to believe that every person who holds such an important place in our heart will always be here to do just that.

You aren’t here though. You never have been. I still talk to you all the time because I know you can hear me. Sometimes I think, “She would be so proud of me,” or, “She would be pretty disappointed in me.” I love making you proud. I love knowing my passion is the same thing yours was. Most of all, I love having your name—a part of you that will always be with me. 

Who wouldn’t want to talk to their own personal angel?

[Edit: 07/30/11] I talked to my daddy about you today. About how we’d actually have some family we’d enjoy being with all the time, if only you were here. Jeff and you and your perfect kids. He misses you so much, I can’t even imagine. I miss you too, I love you.

I’m not quite sure of this reason, but I know you’re no fan of mine. And that’s okay, I know I can’t please everyone. But what are your reasons behind putting me down? Does it make you feel like a good person? Does it make you happy? If it does, suit yourself. Think about your reasoning though. Do you expect me to apologize? Because I won’t. I don’t owe you a thing.

If your content with disliking me and putting me down, so be it. It won’t be returned from me to you because, just like you, I have no reason. I choose to realize that. Just know that if you continue treating people the way you do, it most likely won’t get you far.

but words will never hurt me.

Whoever said that lacked feeling of any kind, besides physical pain. Because words cause the most harm the majority of the time. It was so easy to forgive you because everyone makes mistakes and I’m nowhere near exempt from that. But it’s so much harder than I thought it would be to forget.

I’d rather you have thrown rocks at me any day.

Tupac Shakur

My strength.

The words “thank You” could never suffice. Thank You for coming to save us all, because without You…well life just wouldn’t be worth living. All these presents are awesome and the family & friends time I get to have is even better but nothing could ever compare to the love and miracles You’ve shown me. There is nothing in my life that could ever come close to topping You and I couldn’t say thank You enough times. There are no words in the world to describe how awesome You are. So I’ll live my life for You now and look forward to the day that I’ll continue to live it with You. I love you so much, happy birthday Jesus :)

I have a God who stands next to me and loves me unconditionally whether I’m right or wrong. I have three best friends that I know for an absolute fact will ALWAYS be there for me. Even though they may drive me crazy sometimes, they are forever and I couldn’t ask for a better family. I have someone who makes me happy every second of every day. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, and shoes on my feet. In my opinion, that’s all I need.

If you want to be in my life I would absolutely love to have you but one thing is for sure, I don’t need you. And don’t talk about me if you don’t really know me. I have a story, just like every single other person in the world. Don’t judge, God is the only employee in that profession.

I know you might think you know what’s best for me or you might think I’m doing something wrong because it’s “not what you would do” but it’s not your life, it’s mine. & frankly, I don’t see why I should go around feeling bad that my life isn’t turning out the way everybody else wants it to. I’ll make my own choices, thanks anyways.